I 've trusted or do trust, so I always believed them but always felt something like this would never happen to me. Well, it was after many days of lying around sick that I was again asleep on the couch. Luke and Travis, also sick, asleep in the "big bed". Our entire family had pretty much missed Thanksgiving this year due to illness, except for the wonderful to go plate from The Cracker Barrel. It was early on Sunday morning in that place between wake and sleep that this unclear fuzzy dream occured, but the message was extremely clear. It was my sweet Momma. She came to me in her sweet but no nonsense way and she had a message for me and "the boys". She always called my brothers this and this time was no differnt. She told me to stop being sad because she was gone. She was just fine, wonderful in fact. It was like she had read my mind, my heart the past few weeks. Like she had sensed my dread of the upcoming holidays. She must have watched as I opened each box of Christmas decorations, and cringed inside as every box revealed another memory of her through something she had crafted, sewn, painted, or written. Every lid that was lifted, a memory of her flooded my mind. While I was, and am thankful for such a caring giving mother that made even an ordinary day special, it made me mourn for her that much more. It was bitter sweet. In the dream she shared with me that I need not be so sad and that every holiday was worth giving my all, especially for Luke. She told me it was ok to cry, but not to let it consume me. I couldn't see her clearly, but I could feel her peaceful spirit. It was bright and warm there! She was telling me, "It Is Well" and that this was God's plan just by her smile. It was so wonderful to see her and talk to her again. As I tried to get closer to her she faded away. As if to say, no not too close yet, just go on about your life and give it your all for Jesus and your family. This was the strangest encounter. I did heed my Mother's words. I got up off the sofa today and decorated with my fellas. We had a blessed day full of laughter and I know that she is smiling down upon us. Thank you Momma for reminding me to press on! I love you and miss you so much.
